know passion, know life. "Forget your troubles and dance. Forget your sorrow and dance. Forget your sickness and dance. Forget your weakness and dance." - Bob Marley no passion, no life.
[things to remember] + music as foundation + practice and consistency + condition your mind and your body
taiwanese politics isn't as confusing as much as it is.. shall we say, fucked up? the power is given to the people, but at the same time, i still don't think the idea of democracy has really settled. by rules and regulations, i feel that taiwan is much closer to a true democracy than before, but its also about the people, as much as it is the politicians. i think most people have confused the notion of "democracy" with "we-can-say-and-believe-whatever-we-want-and-it's-ok". just a thought.
moving on...
second semester senior in college. i almost couldn't graduate this semester. which actually wouldn't have been TOO bad. at least i would be able to train a lil while longer :P but life is coming on like a train. and i'm superglued to the railroad tracks. hmm.. busier than i ever have been my entire life. 4 academic classes + 4 dance classes + rehearsals for 3 pieces + choreographing my own piece + work + life + breaking. lets just say my life is not longer scheduled in days, but in hours. i'm happier when i'm busy. but maybe thats only because i have no time to think at all. its that.. "its my last semester, i should take it easy and enjoy it!" vs "its my last semester, if i dont get shit started/done i'm fucked!" dichotomy that pushes and pulls me every which way.
i'm actually interested and investing time into my comm senior capstone class. for my final paper i'll be examining and investigating taiwanese politics and social culture, with an emphasis on the creation of a unique taiwanese identity through means of symbols, names, and language. so for example, the change from Chiang Kai-Shek Airport to Taiwan Taoyuan International Airport. or discussions concerning the removal of the changing of the guard at CKS Memorial Hall. or the possibility of the introduction of a "Taiwan" stamp. or the establishment of taiwanese or tai-yu as a national language. its all sort of interesting. we'll see what happens. i like it because i can look into something i care about but not be too political about it. the irony of it all being that the prof that is helping me out for the purposes of this project is from China and yea you get the idea. at least we got along in a neutral sort of way. yay comm. yay peace. i'm so fcking wierd. i like dansing.
so i've been sort of socially removed as of late. so here's me in a nutshell.
It
doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"Yes."
It doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.
so my new years was: 1) amazing dinner with parents 2) got to see some familiar faces :) 3) taipei 101 with a fucking good view 4) breaking sessioning dansing and being hype!
